this post contains 75questions..bare with me ;)

75 questions to ask yourself

1. Why not me? cause you didnt choose me! xD

2. Am I nice? sometimes..

3. Am I doing what I really want to do? yes since i care about future.

4. What am I grateful for? still live as a muslim.

5. What’s missing in my life? strength

6. Am I honest? when i want to

7. Do I listen to others? frankly not 

8. Do I work hard? only when it's last minute work

9. Do I help others? must ask others xD

10. What do I need to change about myself? my weight :(

11. Have I hurt others? a lot and we are not friends anymore

12. Do I complain? many times.

13. What’s next for me? tesl degree

14. Do I have fun? yes 

15. Have I seized opportunities? i miss one

16. Do I care about others? yup if they care  about me.

17. Do I spend enough time with my family? for now, yesss. but when degree starts, i dont think so.

18. Am I open-minded? i dont know

19. Have I seen enough of the world? malaysia yes. haha.

20. Do I judge others? yes for the new friends.

21. Do I take risks? yes, when i've the urge to take.

22. What is my purpose? to be  a good muslimah and marry a nice guy on earth.

23. What is my biggest fear? coakcroaches and fall in love.

24. How can I conquer that fear? run.

25. Do I thank people enough? literally nope. and i regret that.

26. Am I successful? as a student, not my best yet.

27. What am I ashamed of? i say before think

28. Do I annoy others? i dont know

29. What are my dreams? to get into heaven

30. Am I positive? no

31. Am I negative? no xD

32. Is there an afterlife? of course!

33. Does everything happen for a reason? elders said so

34. What can I do to change the world? be a teacher /lecturer

35. What is the most foolish thing I’ve ever done? i lied 

36. Am I cheap? no.

37. Am I greedy? money yes. power yes.

38. Who do I love? family, since no bff/bf

39. Who do I want to meet? someone which i left 6years ago

40. Where do I want to go? makkah

41. What am I most proud of? meaghan waller. i love her confidence!

42. Do I care what others think about me? i dont care.

43. What are my talents? singing, acting, controlling, haha.

44. Do I utilize those talents? for fun only.

45. What makes me happy? hang out with friends, holiday.

46. What makes me sad? my cats die.

47. What makes me angry? you take advantage on me

48. Am I satisfied with my appearance? no, i am obese!

49. Am I healthy? of course no

50. What was the toughest time in my life? now

51. What was the easiest time in my life? year 6

52. Am I selfish? sometimes, not intended at all.

53. What was the craziest thing I did? being a bad girl

54. What is the craziest thing I want to do? i want to fall hard for someone

55. Do I procrastinate? always

56. What is my greatest regret? spm

57. What has had the greatest impact on my life? spm

58. Who has had the greatest impact on my life? mom and cousins

59. Do I stand up for myself? yes

60. Have I settled for mediocrity? human aren't perfect though.

61. Do I hold grudges? yes, for someone. i know it's bad thing.

62. Do I read enough? no. i am not into reading

63. Do I listen to my heart? yes, i believe in intuition

64. Do I donate enough to the less fortunate? i dont have anything :(

65. Do I pray only when I want something? no

66. Do I constantly dwell on the past? yes, cry hard

67. Do I let other people’s negativity affect me? yes even i try not to.

68. Do I forgive myself? no

69. When I help someone do I think “What’s in it for me”? no

70. Am I aware that someone always has it worse than me? yes

71. Do I smile more than I frown? yes

72. Do I surround myself with good people? yes, they are kind.

73. Do I take time out for myself? a lot

74. Do I ask enough questions? more than enough xD

75. What other questions do I have? am i waiting for someone? literally yes!

lame yet best!

renungan #1

Seorang wanita boleh memasuki pintu syurga melalui pintu surga yang mana saja yang disukainya, cukup dengan 4 syarat saja, yaitu: shalat 5 waktu, puasa di bulan Ramadhan, taat kepada suaminya dan menjaga kehormatannya.

i am not a good teacher..

i wanna share something and this post might turn out very long and i warn you not to read okay, haha.

i have two brothers. both are twins. well, since they are going to take spm this year, i am willing to teach them certain subjects that i could. actually they are arts stream students. so for the past 3months, i have been tutoring my brothers at home and every single night we did that. however, i became less enthusiast and less spirit in teaching them anymore. they are very lazy and what can i say is they are not interested in studying. i am not sure because of what. but i think the gf thingy is really disturbing. because during my high school years, i just have to refuse to go along with this couple thing instead focus more on my study. maybe mrsm environment differs from public school. huh. then, everytime i got back home from work, both of them, were sitting on the comp table passionately playing dota together. i always give advice and always blabber which is good huh. i thought. cause that's the only thing that i can do at the moment. one thing for sure , they do not have their own goal in their lives. if i ask them, i know they stiil do not know what they gonna be and gonna do in future but they know that they want to live happily with their gf( i read their phones , wink, haha). and for the sake of truth, they are not going to marry the girl because thousand of girls in university are much more pretty than they have in schools now! sometimes i cried about this cause i feel responsible to take care of my brothers to make their lives better... hmm, i dont know what else i could do. whatever they are like, i am still their sis and i will change them from now. i will try.

mase kecik lg comey kan, haha.

"I never met a man I didn't like."-Will Rogers

it is hard to find someone who truly loves you and wants to live with you for the next thirty or forty years of marriage..and can stand under any circumstances..