Monkey in the house.

Today, I woke up late as usual. As I went down to settle with the unfinished chores, my mom grabbed me outside. She said she has something to show me and I might startled because of it. Unfortunately, it was not a present. I was clueless and just followed her lead restlessly. Suddenly, I was shocked when there was a monkey at our lawn. From what she told me, she saved the monkey from these two bad dogs. By the time, she tried to save the monkey, he acted wild. However, he still cannot move as his right leg was bleeding. After that, my mom came back with net this time to bring it inside. She afraid that the dogs might attacked the monkey again. Now, the monkey has been given fully protection, shelter and also foods for living. Now, we are waiting for his recovery. We might release him tomorrow. Our cat was locked inside since the monkey was dangerous enough which might killed our cat even he was trapped.

Poor monkey :)

puasa nazar..

today is the day two of my puasa nazar. i suppose to finish it a long time ago. but there was a confusion about this puasa. all this while, i have been hoping and asking Allah to get upm tesl. however, when the result was coming out, it turned out that i got uitm shah alam. it's was a shock to me. i just dont get it on how this upu things work. whatever! so after i got my result, i have no idea to do it or not, i should or shouldnt do this puasa nazar as the result is different from what i asked for.

well, here i am. i just think that i should. seems like Allah wanna test me if i still being grateful with his given fortune. i am so lucky to be among those teslians. thanks Allah.

lost.

umi and i wanted to go to hkl

when we were at jalan tun razak,

we asked ppl on how to get there.

two indonesians, 'akak sudah jauh ni. hospital nya di belakang'

then, we rode there like they said, still lost.

we asked others again

now, some corporates took our attention to ask help

'i know how to get there but it;s hard to tell , heee but it's in jalan tun razak'

ok, aunty indon tipu kami, damn.

then, we went back to the same first road.

at last, we called abah. he's the expertise about road in kl, believe me -,-

finally, we reached hkl. umi's co-worker, puan rosmawati were waiting for us at ward. her husband was at icu before.dia punya tulung rusuk tekena divider jalan.  now. he's at jabatan saraf and can already talk and move his body. dia pengiring polis our pm, najib. so the other day, najib visited him. i saw in berita.  

scary sgt , tetibe rasa insaf bila tgk dia. 

Allah bg dugaan bersesuaian dgn kemampuan kita. 

semoga isteri dia tabah dlm menjaga suami dia , amin.

life that i have now extremely hates me...

:'(

this post contains 75questions..bare with me ;)

75 questions to ask yourself

1. Why not me? cause you didnt choose me! xD

2. Am I nice? sometimes..

3. Am I doing what I really want to do? yes since i care about future.

4. What am I grateful for? still live as a muslim.

5. What’s missing in my life? strength

6. Am I honest? when i want to

7. Do I listen to others? frankly not 

8. Do I work hard? only when it's last minute work

9. Do I help others? must ask others xD

10. What do I need to change about myself? my weight :(

11. Have I hurt others? a lot and we are not friends anymore

12. Do I complain? many times.

13. What’s next for me? tesl degree

14. Do I have fun? yes 

15. Have I seized opportunities? i miss one

16. Do I care about others? yup if they care  about me.

17. Do I spend enough time with my family? for now, yesss. but when degree starts, i dont think so.

18. Am I open-minded? i dont know

19. Have I seen enough of the world? malaysia yes. haha.

20. Do I judge others? yes for the new friends.

21. Do I take risks? yes, when i've the urge to take.

22. What is my purpose? to be  a good muslimah and marry a nice guy on earth.

23. What is my biggest fear? coakcroaches and fall in love.

24. How can I conquer that fear? run.

25. Do I thank people enough? literally nope. and i regret that.

26. Am I successful? as a student, not my best yet.

27. What am I ashamed of? i say before think

28. Do I annoy others? i dont know

29. What are my dreams? to get into heaven

30. Am I positive? no

31. Am I negative? no xD

32. Is there an afterlife? of course!

33. Does everything happen for a reason? elders said so

34. What can I do to change the world? be a teacher /lecturer

35. What is the most foolish thing I’ve ever done? i lied 

36. Am I cheap? no.

37. Am I greedy? money yes. power yes.

38. Who do I love? family, since no bff/bf

39. Who do I want to meet? someone which i left 6years ago

40. Where do I want to go? makkah

41. What am I most proud of? meaghan waller. i love her confidence!

42. Do I care what others think about me? i dont care.

43. What are my talents? singing, acting, controlling, haha.

44. Do I utilize those talents? for fun only.

45. What makes me happy? hang out with friends, holiday.

46. What makes me sad? my cats die.

47. What makes me angry? you take advantage on me

48. Am I satisfied with my appearance? no, i am obese!

49. Am I healthy? of course no

50. What was the toughest time in my life? now

51. What was the easiest time in my life? year 6

52. Am I selfish? sometimes, not intended at all.

53. What was the craziest thing I did? being a bad girl

54. What is the craziest thing I want to do? i want to fall hard for someone

55. Do I procrastinate? always

56. What is my greatest regret? spm

57. What has had the greatest impact on my life? spm

58. Who has had the greatest impact on my life? mom and cousins

59. Do I stand up for myself? yes

60. Have I settled for mediocrity? human aren't perfect though.

61. Do I hold grudges? yes, for someone. i know it's bad thing.

62. Do I read enough? no. i am not into reading

63. Do I listen to my heart? yes, i believe in intuition

64. Do I donate enough to the less fortunate? i dont have anything :(

65. Do I pray only when I want something? no

66. Do I constantly dwell on the past? yes, cry hard

67. Do I let other people’s negativity affect me? yes even i try not to.

68. Do I forgive myself? no

69. When I help someone do I think “What’s in it for me”? no

70. Am I aware that someone always has it worse than me? yes

71. Do I smile more than I frown? yes

72. Do I surround myself with good people? yes, they are kind.

73. Do I take time out for myself? a lot

74. Do I ask enough questions? more than enough xD

75. What other questions do I have? am i waiting for someone? literally yes!